40693) I used to think that everyone in the world was literally out to get me. Now I know it’s only myself. One part of me says “don’t eat,” the other part of me says “shove all the food in sight in your mouth.” I’m battling the other half of me every day. And it’s taking a toll on me.
40681) I used to read this blog and promise myself that I wouldn’t turn into the people on here.
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But now, a short while later I’m making myself eat less and making myself purge. I just want to have that beautiful body guys dream about. But no matter how much I restrict my eating, and how much I purge, the only thing I see in the mirror is fat. I didn’t want to be anorexic but I am, and now I can’t imagine living life without it. I don’t want to get better. I want to get worse.
